I have been feeling empty and drained without knowing the reason why. Blaming myself and being disappointed. All of these, I kept it to myself.

I trouble focusing on a specific thing especially when it comes to my studies. Everytime I’m on this state I become lazy. Literally doesn’t have energy to do anything, then my parents would get mad at me and me to myself too. I get pissed easily.

Sometimes I would go out with my cousin, roaming around. Then sleep all day just to be unconscious with what I’m feeling. I would even try to release it by entertaining myself with some games, watching movies and scroll through social media. But that makes it worse.

Then there will always be that thing or words that I would hear that will make my emotions get into its edge. At that time when everyone is asleep I will cry it all out silently and pray. As I wake up for another day I cheer myself and feel better. That’s how I end my silent wars.

We Filipinos have been through a lot of adversity back then until now. We have faced strong storms, agricultural problem, economical issue and much more, but those challenges did not knock us down.

Currently, Filipinos are suffering because of this pandemic. This virus called COVID-19 has caused death and pain to innocent people of our country. It made most Filipino jobless and brought hunger to people. We feel unsafe everytime we go out. It’s a threat to our lives. We are having hardships because we can’t do things freely, without getting worried and anxious with the people who surround us which we doesn’t even know where they came from or who they have socialized with. It gives as more limitions and distance from each other. It literally changes everything in what we were you used to, that it made us trouble to adjust.

However, we Filipinos have been adaptable with this new normal and staying strong to continue our life through this battle with an invisible enemy. We could even find opportunities to be grateful behind this pandemic. Beyond that it brings us closer to our family as we always stay at our own homes to be safe. It made us realize things and appreciate every simple moments with our special ones. Every memory with them is getting much more prescious.

We are becoming more stronger and united as we grapple for each other’s safety. Soon, this pandemic will just be one of those legendary stories that Filipinos will overcome. We are tough because we are Filipino.